Doe Eyed Bambi

What is it with humanity thinking that they are the only 'good' person there is out there, that they never hurt anyone? I mean, I think that in my life the scene from Mean Girls fits nicely.

Janis: Did you have an awesome time? Did you drink awesome shooters, listen to awesome music, and just soak up each others awesomeness?
Cady: You know what? You're the one who made me like this so you could use me for your eighth grade revenge!
Janis: God! See, at least me and Regina George know we're mean! You try to act so innocent like, 'Oh, I use to live in Africa with all the little birdies, and the little monkeys'.
Cady: You know what! It's not my fault you're like, in love with me, or something!
Janis: What?
Damian: Oh no she did not!
Janis: See, that's the thing with you plastics, you think everyone's in love with you, but in reality, everyone hates you, like Aaron Samuels for example! He broke up with Regina and guess what, he still doesn't want you, Cady! So why are you still messing with Regina? I'll tell you why, because you are a mean girl, you're a bitch!

And then there's the 13 Going on 30 quote that fits nicely:
"OK, you can wipe the doe-eyed-Bambi-watching-her-mother-get-shot-and-strapped-to-the-back-of-a-van look from your face."

You see, as I go through, and try to talk to my friends, most of them act like Cady, except for...((I'm using this because she'll know what I'm talking about)) Regina, because unlike everyone else, at least we know we're mean, we don't try to hide it and act all innocent.

This whole thing pisses me off, I mean, we are all human, we all say things without thinking, but at least I know when I'm being mean, and if I'm being mean, chances are, I'm not going to apologize. Usually. If I genuinely feel bad about it, I will apologize, otherwise, fuck you, and fuck your mother's eye sockets.

And in other news, I'm going to fail English, Chinese, and probably Geography.
You see, I have to have the first 4 chapters of A Tale of Two Cities by Monday, The Giver by Wednesday, and Ties That Bind Ties That Break by Tuesday. Then we have a huge test in Geography on Tuesday, but that I think I can handle, I've got most of it down now.
But do my other teachers not realize that I have 6 teachers other than themselves? And those 6 teachers give me homework too?
Not to mention, I'm 11 THOUSAND words behind on NaNo. Which is better than it was earlier today. This morning it was 15 thousand...so I'm catching up, no?

Then there's the sick bastard that most people call 'Shigure's Carma's Dad' I hate him. I absolutely hate him. He's tried to hit me twice this week, which really didn't help my whole emo depressed week much. Oh well, he'll be dead in my novel anyways...probably something related to a drunken stupor.

Oh! Earth Queen, if you're reading this, I've been thinking about you lately, don't know why, I just have been. I miss you, and love you bunches! I'd have you call me, but my phone's dead and I don't know what I did with the charger.

Oh, and it's like really, really, unbelievably cold in my house. I'm freezing. Seriously, freezing.

And don't forget, forgotten posts (like within the last month) may contain vital information. You may want to read them.

The Mean Girl,
Shigure's Carma

P.S. See? I admitted I'm a mean girl. XP
P.P.S. I'm truly and deeply sorry to Motoko for an unkind comment that was based mostly off of anger at my dad that day. I love you!